Lamentations of My Soul

My lord, my God, have mercy on me, 

For I am a sinner, a man of unclean lips,

A liar, a fornicator, a defiler of innocence, 

A coveter, an idol worshiper, a taker of your name, 

A murderer, a vile man for which there is no hope.

Yet, you sent your Son, to die for me, 

To shed his blood on the cross for all,

Because even though he knew, 

My past, present, and future sins,

He still chose to have the nails driven into him. 

The spear pierce his side and the crowd laugh,

The crown scratch and dig into his head,

His flesh scrapped from his back, 

And die a painful death.

I am not worthy of your sacrifice, 

But your blood makes me worthy. 

Wash me and cover me in your blood, 

For I am a man who is trying,

Trying to be like you in name and spirit.

Forgive me Father, for your Son asks you so. 

Lord I believe in you, believe in me,

And wash these tears away with Your hand.

For one day Lord, I want to hear you say, 

Well done my good and faithful servant, 

                             Well done. 

Lord, though the days seem long, and the night cold, 

I know you are there in the midst of the morning dew.

A great joy overcomes me when I awake, for you allow it.

When I feel alone in the world, I know you are there, 

Watching me as I grow and learn from mistakes in my life,

But that serpent speaks to me daily and I see you fade away, 

I see only the world and no longer can feel your presence.

Hear my plea Lord, cast them elsewhere, scatter them away,

For I try to hear your voice, but the Devil knows my game.

He whispers to me day and night, and tells me you're gone, 

He knows my every move and play, for he knows my song. 

Where are you my Lord? Where have you gone to now?

Why can I not see you here, but only hear the harps play?

My head begins to pound, and my thoughts all run away, 

For where has my Lord gone, did I drive him away again?

Was I a bad Christian and let the Devil win? Lord please,

Please come back again into my life and hear my screams.

Lord, is that you? The rebuilder of my life has returned.

I see you in the grass, in the trees and the wind, the waterfalls, 

The evening sunset, and the moonlight of the night sky.

The smiles of others, the helping hand, the words spoken to ease pain.

I never lost sight of you, the Dragon only tricked me into being blind, 

But now my eyes are fully open and my sight is clear as day,

For I know my Lord is with me, he weather's all my pain.

  Lord, I need you now more than ever, my heart is heavy with this burden,

Please, send me legions of angels, to pick me up and carry me forwards,

Where your hand will wipe away the tears from my face, and make me anew.

I am screaming for you to release me from this cross, which weighs so heavy on me, 

Please, take this burden from upon me, and let my soul recover from the anchor of life.

Heal the scars of the flesh and the turbulence of the mind, for the spirit is willing,

But the flesh, the flesh of our body, is oh so weak.

Light the way for me to recover from this desolate place, where I feel abandoned and empty,

To a place where your light fills up my soul, and my lamentations cease to exist in writing,

For Elisha the prophet, Jonah the prophet, Job the man of God, and Solomon the wise felt this pain, 

Yet you were able to raise them up from desperation, and send the comforter to lighten their load,

So that they may walk with you one day in paradise. Speak to her, heal her, save her.